Posted by karen_kay on May 4, 2004, at 20:58:33
In reply to relieved to find this site, posted by ghost on May 4, 2004, at 9:24:48
ghost,
first and foremost, i want to welcome you to babble. i know that babble has honestly been a very important support system for me. please don't hesitate to venture out to the other boards as well. there are some mighty fine people out there who would love the opportunity to meet and greet you as well. also, this board is great, in that you may be able to form some connections with posters here as well, while meeting people on the other boards. what i'm trying to say, in my own weird way, is feel free to post whenever and where ever you like. don't feel confinded to post just here. and again, welcome!!!
also, i wanted to say (on a more personal level) i understand exactly what you are saying. it's on the tip of your tongue, you're just waiting for someone, anyone to ask the 'right' questions. whatever those are, right? and i'm not even sure what those questions are. maybe i'm wrong, and that's not what you're saying at all, but that's how i feel too. i want so much to talk to someone about what's going on but i can't. i feel like i'd be burdening them, bringing them down, hurting them, when instead i could be spending my time helping them solve their problems.
and they say, "i'm here to talk' but i don't know if i can. i want to, but my mind won't let me. even with my therapist sometimes. so instead i sit on it. and it festers. and i think too much. i just don't want to burden people with my problems. or maybe i don't believe them when they say they'll listen? no, i do have people i believe.
ok, so after all this rambling (and i'm sorry about it.. i really am, i ramble too much i'm afraid..), my therapist came to the conclusion that i have an inability to form attachments and that i have trust issues. but, i do have some people i trust. and i'm very attached to some people. i think it's jsut about letting down that wall and taking a chance. sure, there's a chance you may get hurt. but, you learn from that. and you grow. and you move on. and you find someone else, someone better.
so, again after rambling even further i'm afraid, let down that wall. take a chance. call those people. open your mouth and talk. even when your mind won't let you. it's hard. boy, do i know. but it sure is worth it. trust me when i say that!
poster:karen_kay
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