Posted by Fallen4MyT on May 12, 2004, at 19:10:50
In reply to Fallen4MyT, posted by Ivan MIchael on May 12, 2004, at 10:07:39
Ya know its OK with me if you blow up daily I like the dark half of you too..WE all have dark sides and I have spent many a nights looking at hubby sleeping and thinking of smothering him with a pillow...but haven't YET....tis better to let it out by talking or even drawing pics of what you think/feel/wish than acting on it. I am glad you didnt toss the kid off cause you would end up in a mess....you do not deserve that so don't let them push you to it..In school I use to get picked on...I was soooo not good looking and I hated a lot of kids..when I went to a class reunion recently THEY had forgotten and were all over me...I look pretty good and all now and have did some small time modeling since high school....and well...it was just a passing thing to them but stung me.
SO HUGE HUGS to your dark side..curse me..in a civil way lol....hate me, call me names...do what you want...toss me off the railing ..I will jump back up like Spiderman (loved that movie) and hug that dark side anyhow> thankyou. you guys mean so much to me. i feel better today so i don't think i'll blow up again. lol. it's just that i think i'm getting worse. i get mad at my g/f and my friends, and my parents all the time, and strangers, and myself for being this way. most of the time i get upset and then feel horrible about it and put myself down even more. i've always tried to be peaceful too, but when kids openlie come up to you and try to start a fight, 2 guys have so far, i don't want to beat the crap outa them, i wanna beat them down to the ground, throw them over the rail of the steps, and slit their throat with a pair of scissors. i know that i shouldn't think stuff like that and i almost did push a kid over the rail the other day but stopped myself just in time. i hope that i never do go too far. well i'll rap this up. i still am seeing a counselor and i'll tell him how i feel, even though i've lied about it before. thanks for the hugs. my dark side needs it. lotsa hugs back. later. and thanks for being here. :)
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