Posted by zenhussy on December 8, 2003, at 11:24:39
In reply to Re: borderline traits, but not bd diagnosis???? , posted by helenag on December 8, 2003, at 9:48:35
> Please help. I just got out of the hospital for the 6th time since april, but I hope that this time my pdoc got closer to what is going on with me. I hope because it feels like i'm going round and round and round like a hamster on a wheel. There is a diagnosis of depression but lots of other stuff i do that is plain destructive--I go through periods of anxiety and agitation where I can crawl out of my skin. There has always been an emptiness inside me, always, where at my lowest times life makes no sense at all. my friends always tell i am looking for something that doesn't exist. in my past i have been pals with people who were "arty" the poet-types who were also "lost" and forlorn. i am an alcoholic because i used booze and other substances to take the edge off the agitation and sadness. I have a love-hate relationship with my pdoc; lucky for me he hasn't left me. many times I have asked him not to leave me.
> the only time my life has been stable has been when my kids were little and i had a good purpose in my life. i was a mom and plenty to do.
> Anyway, i came out of this hospitalization with the pdoc coming to the conclusion that i had personality disorder traits-he told me to read the book, I hate you, don't leave me. He sent me to a emotion therapy group and back to my therapist. He didn't say I was borderline, but that book is about borderline patients. Am I to assume that I have borderline traits? I have cut my cut my wrists twice, in previous hospitalizations. The only time I have ever done anything like that at all. Am I overly concerned with labels?? Is there a continum of borderline? Where there are degrees of the disorder??
> I sure hope to receive some responses. Thank you.Helenag,
Welcome back from your hospitalization. I pray you're doing okay.
Here are a couple of links that you could follow to read up on borderline personality disorder( bpd). I'm hoping that you can glean some relevant info for yourself from these links.
http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.borderline.htmlhttp://www.dr-bob.org/babble/admin/20031008/msgs/276034.html
From above link-----In case the diagnosis is unfamiliar to anyone, here are the DSM criteria, and those of the ICD-10, respectively:
http://www.mentalhealth.com/dis1/p21-pe05.html
http://www.mentalhealth.com/icd/p22-pe05.htmlAnd the rest are just links from within the Psycho-Babble site from threads mentioning BPD.
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20030407/msgs/219836.html
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20020222/msgs/95732.html post in thread by Helenbpd about bipolar vs. borderline
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20030905/msgs/261597.html post by Fallsfall with book links about therapies for borderlines (borderliners? sorry I'm not sure of proper terminology)
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20030925/msgs/266794.html NikkiT2 with link to fab. UK site about bpd
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20021012/msgs/123489.html from the post: "Pfinstegg (who used to have a diagnosis of BPD, but doesn't now)"
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20020517/msgs/24015.html Zo musing about borderline traits
I know most of these links talk about bpd and you're mentioning only having traits but at least this is a start to finding some information and seeing that others are on this journey as well.
Good job on reaching out. Good luck with this healing as well.
Kindly,
zenhussy
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