Posted by hrtlm on January 30, 2004, at 19:41:41
I'm becoming more and more agitated and suicidal and dont know what to do other than go to the ospital - ive never done this before - im too scared to - i have no insurance, but since i only make 960 a month, wont the hospital help? will they not allow me in? will they kick me out soon as i say im not suicidal - i need help so badly, and i fgeel like nobodys listening!!!!!!!! or maybe im not even screaming out loud, but something has to give and im getting so worked up - how can i even tell my mom whats been happeneingf - she will worry so much - it makes me sick what ive done to myself and my life and the stress ive created for others - a poor person never gets someone really able and willing to help! ive fallen through the cracks so many times and each time, a little more of me is permanetntmly fucked up. i dont know what to do
do i call the hospital first? no wayt do i want an ambulance coming so that all my weird neighbors can see what a freak the new guy is - do i take clothes, toothbrush? contact lens solutions? do i go to the emergency room\? what do i say? will they believe me - i cant even cry anymoire because of the godadamn meds im on. im so fat, that im ugly and disgusting - i only even have one change of clothes and they are dirty - i know no one intown to even help me and bring me things or call my family or anything - what do i do?
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thread:307494
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