Posted by Elle2021 on March 14, 2004, at 2:57:47
I had a not so great therapy session yesterday. To start I told my T that I would only be able to see her twice a month now. She asked me why that was and I tried to explain to her about my mother and etc (you know what I'm talking about if you follow my posts). She seemed upset at me, even though she said she realized it was out of my control. Anyway, I felt like she was mad at me so it sort of set the mood for the rest of the session. :( I don't feel like she understands me. I told her I hated therapy. Then she seemed to get even more irritated, even when I tried to make it clear that I didn't hate her, I hated the way therapy is making me feel. I cry after just about every session. I told her that I hated it because there were things I wanted to tell her, but couldn't yet because I don't know how to deal with the feelings yet. We talked about how I am completely 100% out of touch with my feelings. She wants to start "working on that." Uh-huh... I can see that happening. We talked about my manic episode and she had *nothing* really to say about it. She asked me a few questions about why I felt manic, what I did during, and what I tried to stop it. Then she never gave me any idea on whether it really was a genuine episode or not. Now I miss Burt (my pdoc). I left a message a WEEK ago with his secretary to call me and he still hasn't called. That always hurts my feelings. I feel depressed.
Elle
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