Posted by lonelygirl on March 19, 2004, at 23:04:15
In reply to Re: I hate therapy (rant) » lonelygirl, posted by DaisyM on March 19, 2004, at 14:07:19
> The best conclusion I can reach is that I've opened up painful areas, stuff I wouldn't allow to surface or even acknowledge. So when I leave, those wounds are open. And they hurt. And just when they start to heal up again, I go back in there and we rip them open again. This is why when you get in really deep, you sometimes need to go more often, and/or take a break from the topic.
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I don't think I have even gotten in all that deep! It's not even a particular topic that makes me like that. For example, this week, we discussed how I was mad at myself for wasting my whole spring break when I had a lot of work I should have been doing. It's not like I was even talking about my childhood, or my parents, or constantly being rejected by men, or anything like that. I guess I better hope none of that ever comes up...
> And, I have heard/read here that some psychologist do have a knee-jerk reaction to discussions around suicide and suicidal thoughts. But if you trust him, you will feel better if you tell him.
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But I don't know how he will react... And because the counseling is at the student health center at my school, I could get in serious trouble with the school if he decides to report that I am "a danger to [my]self or others." If I ask him, I'm sure he will realize why I am asking, and if the answer is that he will report it, he might report it just because I asked! The school has really strict policies that he does not decide. I think my only choice is to keep it to myself.
> As far as lonely-- it does hurt doesn't it? I think therapy makes us aware of what it feels like to matter to someone else, not for what we can do for them, but for who we are. And then we turn around in our "real" life to find this same kind of caring, and if it is missing, the hole is huge.
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Yeah :(
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