Posted by littlep24 on June 30, 2004, at 13:16:58
I know that this question should be answered by me because it is about me, however, I am having a hard time deciding. My therapy is due to my depression,self esteem problems and my inability to accept myself for who I am. We all have 2 selves that fight against each other most people can work out that turmoil in there head and move on. My ambivalence is causing me so much pain because I can not work through the turmoil in my head. I have alot of marital issues. I love my therapist but she is bias. She doesn't believe that I am bipolar. She thinks that if my husband was more in tune with my feelings, less critcal of me and didn't try to fix me, I would be much happier. Obviously, to some degree that is true. Just because I do things different than him doesn't mean I need to be fixed, he has me convinced that I do need to be. Due to my t's biasness she tends to blame my husband for everything and then I get on her bandwagon for periods and become very confused about my feelings if my husband is really that bad of a person. I am trying to sort out the issues that I brought into the marriage (which I haven't figured out how to since my memory is horrible and most of my life is a blur) and those that have been caused by the interactions between my husband and myself. I have been through soo many therapist and this is the one I am most comfortable with, however, I am afraid she is allowing me to have self pity,feel like the world owes me and that my husband is controlling traits I already had but I am not sure. She is known for making women stronger and sticking up for themselves that is why I like her. The question at hand is does this make her unable to see both sides and how depression effects the other person and how they react? I am not sure if I explained why I am concerned about this t and me. If you have thoughts but need further detail let me know or of course just give me your thoughts.
littlep
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