Posted by shrinking violet on August 15, 2004, at 20:24:59
In reply to Re: I quit therapy (again), posted by underthecs on August 15, 2004, at 19:26:44
Wow, I'm sorry you're going through all of this.
I think you should talk to your T about this issue. He sounds like he tries to be there for you, and as available as he can outside of session (which most T's won't do, so that in itself is something to value). Perhaps allowing you to email him is doing you more harm than good.
Try to talk about this with him. I know it's hard, but this situation doesn't sound good or beneficial to either of you. I get angry at my T a lot; I usually send her a seething email after sessions are over. After I've calmed down and re-read them, I feel so guilty (because she really doesn't deserve the crap I throw at her) and it isn't her fault I always interpret things in a negative way, or cant let myself feel/express anger or frustration while I'm actually in front of her. I'm trying to not do this anymore because I end up calling her (or emailing her) crying and apologizing profusely, and I know my anger really isn't at her (or if it is, it isnt warranted to that extent). I also know my anger hurts her, and that's the last thing I want to do.
Anyway, you should talk to your T about all of this. Maybe write about it and read it to him in session, if just talking openly seems too daunting.
Good luck. I hope it gets better for you.
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