Posted by daisym on November 21, 2004, at 16:48:08
In reply to I don't like my T anymore. :( Lengthy!, posted by antigua on November 21, 2004, at 11:14:17
Oh Antigua, I'm sorry for this struggle.
I think it must be very difficult to realize that no matter how good your therapist is, she can't undo what has been done. I think I *know* this, but I sometimes think I'm still secretly wishing for a "do over" -- another chance at childhood. You are grieving, but as grief is a process, you may have moved into a different stage now.
After 13 years, of course your therapist cares for you. I'm sure she thinks about you, and I'm so impressed that you can talk about all this with her. Perhaps you need another perspective right now, a consultation or a group?
I think you need to be careful to not under estimate that aftermath of your accident. This was a huge trauma, new trauma, compounded with old trauma. It will take a while to work through all the feelings that go with trauma. It sounds like there is a lot of PTSD stuff coming up from the accident itself.
Be extra nice to yourself. I'm glad you have chocolate on hand. Keep writing if it helps.
Daisy
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