Posted by lifeworthliving on November 25, 2004, at 22:02:57
In reply to Re: Different emphasis on attachment - pegusus » lifeworthliving, posted by Shortelise on November 25, 2004, at 16:00:45
i've been afraid that if my t knew how intense this is for me, it would scare her? then i'm reminded how "easy" she has been about many things regarding my attachment to her (tho we've never called it that, i don't think?)and she doesn't seem overly concerned. i think it's a conversation that needs to happen tho. i guess i'm surprised that after all this time (3 years in april) that we've never talked about it the way i think it needs to be talked about now? or maybe i've never needed to know as bad as i need to know now that this is ok? i thought i might be getting "worse" because she is about to be gone for 5 weeks. this has happened before (not quite this long) and she has been gracious enough to make herself accessible to me, even when she is on the other side of the world!!! i have this thing about being able to find her... i don't have to call, just knowing i could if i wanna? it is so odd (or maybe just unfamiliar) to be so dependent for something i can't identify. what am i so dependent on her for? i wouldn't mind it if i thought it was ok, but mostly it makes me miserable, all this wanting... and of what????
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