Posted by Susan47 on March 3, 2005, at 16:46:23
In reply to Re: missing my ex t » Susan47, posted by pinkeye on March 3, 2005, at 16:31:46
Therapists just have so much power, they have a great deal of power over us because we're just so insecure. When they leave us feeling bad about ourselves, as mine did and I suspect yours did on some level too, it's not a matter of us just being able to pick ourselves up and dust ourselves off. And it makes me angry and upset to think that's what my therapist did to me, because I wasn't able to vocalize my inability to fight for therapy, to fight for what I needed to get from him, in any other way than a roundabout method, and he did not get the message, he just did not understand.
I get so angry with him, his dishonesty and his inability in telling me how to back off without hurting me .. but I love him, too, and don't get mad at me for saying that, but I do, I love him and I want to protect him because I don't believe he meant to hurt me. I believe he was a good person but I don't know, maybe he isn't as mentally healthy as I thought he was.
I do know definitely from what he said to me, that he sees people like me as being somehow deficient, or lacking. Less than. Timothy Findley says this in his play Stillborn Lover, "You've just revealed a prejudice you didn't know you had". I wonder how many T's and Psych's have that prejudice.
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