Posted by mair on March 17, 2005, at 16:52:37
In reply to Re: so what's this all about? (long a trigger ) » mair, posted by daisym on March 16, 2005, at 10:46:21
Daisy, I've worked on the balance problem over dozens of sessions (really more than that), but usually with an eye towards not letting work consume me to the point where everything else slides including my sanity.
When I first started getting treated for depression, probably 9 years ago I went through days at a time where i did little other than stare out the window. It was awful and took a real toll on me professionally. I feel that it's taken years to dig out from the hole I created, and I'll never ever be able to get back to where I was well before that. What's so frightening now if the thought that I might be headed down that path again. I wake up feeling this sense of foreboding; I dread going to work; I feel paralyzed much of the time I'm there; I'm totally focused on how poorly things are going, and I can't see myself right now coming out of it before I've done too much damage to recover. And the money stuff starts weighing on me too. It's so hard sitting here feeling like such a total fraud.
Mair
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