Posted by happyflower on June 15, 2005, at 18:57:33
In reply to 3 rd anniversary .. don't know what to feel !!, posted by pinkeye on June 15, 2005, at 18:11:33
Pinkeye, I am so sorry that my post made you upset and sad. :( I know you are hurting so much about your exT. I sure hope I am not in same boat when termination is near. I don't even want to think about it. Anniversaries are tough. Plus remember, I was ready to rip his head off a week ago, so it changes from week to week. I think your new T is great, and is helping you. Is she aware of this anniversary? When is your next session? You may say you feel numb, but i feel your heart is bleeding internally and I feel it. I wish I could take away the pain. I think so highly of you (even if you don't want me to) and I wish happiness for you and am going to wait until it happens. It will happen, believe me, if I can heal, anyone can. I thought I was doomed to unhappiness from what my parents did to me. I think you are stronger than you realize. You have helped me so much, a weak person can't do that you know. Please don't let this anniversary get you down and if you can't help it, please let your new T help you heal. It seems like your T needs to help you more with what happened with your old T then your older issues. I want to defend you so badly, I want to smack that ex-T of yours for what he did. Sorry I am being so blunt, but I am mad at him too for hurting little pinkeye. How could anyone do that to such a nice person as you. (((((Pinkeye))))
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