Posted by Tamar on June 16, 2005, at 3:48:11
In reply to Great Session :-), posted by alexandra_k on June 15, 2005, at 23:43:54
> I saw my uni councellor today.
> It went really well :-)Yippee! I'm so pleased for you!
> I told her about the black holes and about how it is hard for me to figure out what to do about them.
> I told her about how I can see that I'm upset because I'm seeing things a certain way, I can see that the issue could be reframed - but sometimes I just can't change my pov.
>
> That was interesting.
> She said that I could try standing in one place and really thinking out the perspective.
> Then moving to a different place (position) and trying to really think through another.
> Maybe the change in position will help me get into the spirit of it???
> We will see...I've heard about that technique from someone who specialises in mediation. I actually tried it once and it's hard to do if you're feeling stubborn, but seemed to help a bit.
> We talked about how I thought I was caught between accepting the funding situation and changing it. The first seems to invoke despair and the second rage.
>
> She said maybe it would be helpful to think of what I could do with respect to my behaviour rather than the outcome of my behaviour. That way I can take steps to change it without (hopefully) getting too frustrated / angry along the way.
>
> That helps a lot :-)
>
> We talked some more...
>
> About what I want out of therapy with her.
>
> Basically.... Basically she is willing to try working with me properly. For her (from her theorietical perspective) that is about walking alongside me helping me make sense of stuff.
>
> That sounds good to me :-)
>
> But...
>
> Most of the psychologists / p-docs don't seem to know what to do with me...
> That is why they referred me onto a specialist.
> The specialist said I needed to work with someone who has some experience in treating DID.
>
> But...
>
> Why?
> Because they are supposed to learn about the sorts of things that have helped other people with a given dx.
> Then they teach the person those things.
>
> So individual differences are minimised
> And the person is seen as 'just like' so and so.
> Otherwise - how could they be experts?????I suppose if they really are experts they should be able to recognise both how your experience fits a pattern and also how your experience is unique and individual, and thereby help *you* rather than treating you as a textbook case.
> But...
>
> I'm sick of that approach anyways.
> It doesn't seem to have gotten me so very far
> Maybe it is time to try something new.
>
> I'm going to contact p-doc about the p-doc waiting list.
> For an hospitalisation aid (should things come to that).
> I'm going to inform the recomended t that the funding didn't come through (because I don't know if she has been told).
> I'm going to tell p-doc I didn't receive a copy of the letter declining funding and get them to check my adress.
> I'm going to have a meeting with the funding people to try and understand their decision.It sounds good that you have made all these plans and seem to feel enthusiastic about carrying them out.
> I feel so much better.
> I think I am ready to give this / her a go.
>
> :-)Good for you! Hope it gets you nearer to where you want to go.
Tamar
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