Posted by Jazzed on July 5, 2005, at 11:09:37
In reply to Still torn - longish, posted by Shortelise on July 3, 2005, at 18:05:33
> Today's chapter of ShortE's saga.
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> I am wondering if I have the balls to go back.That would be really hard. Sounds like it's been on your mind a lot, which probably doesn't make it any easier.
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> It seems like it will be a battle, and one I cannot really even participate in as an equal. All I have is silence. The ground is so uneven.Sounds like a really uncomfortable situation, but it also sounds like he also has qualities that you really admire. I know how that feels.
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> I sit there a blathering idiot steeped in emotion and unable to justify a frilly pickle thing I am saying. "This hurts" "This is wrong for me" "You are taking away my safe place" "YOU HAVE CHANGED". That last is important. He really wants me to explain that.I agree with daisy, maybe he should explain it to you, so that you can understand it too. Do you have to justify how you feel or why you feel things? I'm confused by that. I want to understand the things that make me feel like a "blathering idiot steeped in emotion", and that's why I wanted to go to therapy.
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> a logic that I don't possess, and I could never compete with it. It was pure logic, and she could twist and turn it at her will, and I could not. I am playing chess and they are playing checkers and their rules make no sense to me.I have no logic either. Very hard to see it, want it, and not have it. Seems like it should be something we could aquire, but I guess you either have it or not. Painful if it's used against you. Shouldn't be in therapy.
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> I don't know what I will decide to do. I have two weeks and a day to decide. I'm not depressed, not even sad, just ... very thoughtful and a little apprehensive.
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Maybe a different T? Someone who makes you feel more comfortable being you? Esp. if you wouldn't feel sad to leave this T.Jazzy
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