Posted by 10derHeart on July 12, 2005, at 23:10:03
In reply to Sinking, posted by messadivoce on July 12, 2005, at 0:05:14
>>I'm reaching.
There's nothing there.Well, I know what you meant, I think, but there's *something* there.
Someone there. Us. We are definitely here.Sorry you're feeling that dread and slippping...I so get that. In fact, I wish I'd had your words earlier today to use to explain to my T. some of the sensations I'm having.
Confusion. Unease. Worry about....what?
I can't grasp any reason, yet it keeps creeping up on me and I just want to sit and stare at a wall and ruminate and accomplish nothing.
Apathy. Yuk :-(But I digress....this is about YOU.
I wonder if this bit of depression and feeling like you're quite unsteady is connected to your fear about the new job next week? Perhaps too simplistic, but I often find the most obvious thing IS the thing. Like a Homer Simpson *DOH*!! moment.....
Depression and anxiety are often intertwined so we can't tell them apart much. So I wonder if maybe
you're so tired from worries and self-doubt about the job, it's *morphed* into other emotions?Your ex-T would NOT be disappointed. I know because you have shared plenty enough for me to know how smart, wise and sensitive he could be. Meaning he would see it just like Alex wrote - way clearer than I can - as just a slight swerve...think how many times I've had those here, and so many others....you're allowed, you know.
It's quite totally human to relapse a little around upheavals in life. Your life has had, and is still having, plenty of those since graduation. Don't discount that. Let yourself feel how hard and new a lot of it all is. It's okay.
I believe some of us, with our oh-so-amazingly wonderful, yet delicate brains, respond to those upheavals in life sort of - farther along to one end or the other on the emotional scale than just anyone does. It's just the way we are. So we don't do as well with stress, change, loss and all that.Then, in a way, maybe we end up doing better when it's all said and done, what with Babble friends, good T's and our own constant introspection. Just hard to see it when you're in the grip of those feelings that scare you...
But we do keep learning, bit by tiny bit, which stuff helps each of us the best.
You're still learning.
I'm still learning (arghhhh - at MY age!)You are going to do great and these feelings will pass. They have before, and they will again - remember that, 'kay? Hugs from me.
(PS - I owe you a Babblemail or two. I will get right on that tomorrow - I swear! ;-)
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