Posted by All Done on December 29, 2005, at 2:20:45
In reply to Re: I really do know nothing is magic or easy. » All Done, posted by rs on December 27, 2005, at 20:13:19
> Hi.
Hi, rs.
> Do not post often so please I apologize for jumping in here.No apologies necessary at all.
> This subject on attachment is really hitting here today. I have it bad. Real bad.(((((rs)))))
> Today has session and just was so awful. Saw cards from other clients on T shelf. UGh. Got an attitude. Just cannot do this T realionship anymore at all.
>
> What is sad is I know that T cares much. But getting worse and worse. It hurts to go there. Have been through so much abuse causing DID which small parts are like hurting for T caring.It's so hard to understand why it hurts us to be cared for. It seems like a lot of us know our Ts care, but it's so hard to accept that care. :(
> He sees about 9 clients a day and I hate it. I walked out of session tonight because was hurt when he used words that was comparing things with other clients. That hurts and could just feel the jealousy inside.I told my T that I believe he lives in his office and just waits for my session. The guy sitting in the waiting room after me must just be a delivery guy. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. ;)
Seriously, though, I'm sorry it hurts so much. And I'm really sorry that your T said things that made you feel like he was comparing you to other clients. We all want to feel special to our Ts and it's hard to do that when we think about their other clients.
> Anyway thanks much for sharing because it helps me not feel so alone and crazy.I know what you mean about not feeling so alone and crazy. It's why I posted. I know there are other posters who understand. I'm so grateful for this place.
> Again sorry for jumping in here.Again, don't be sorry. :)
> Thanks for being honest.You, too, rs. I wish I could erase all your pain.
Take care,
Laurie
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