Posted by Deneb on February 20, 2006, at 11:03:03
Today I had an appointment with pdoc1, henceforth just referred to as pdoc.
We talked a bit about why I'm infatuated with Dr. Bob and why I keep making threats to my life. She made me realize that my threats are my way of eliciting caring from other people. When I make threats what I really want is for people to show that they care about me. She made me realize that I need to learn other ways to elicit caring from others.
We figured out that Dr. Bob represents a father figure to me. I'm trying to elicit a caring response from Dr. Bob because I never received that from my father and others. My father only shows his love for me by doing things like drive me places. He has never actually said that he loves me or shown any affection for me. My family's not affectionate. We never say "I love you" or hug each other or anything.
We figured out that when I escalate my threats, in a way I do want the police called because that would mean that Dr. Bob cared. But why do I care so much that Dr. Bob cares?
We also figured out that my "relationship" with Dr. Bob is a "safe" relationship, in that it is one sided. I don't quite understand all of it, but we are going to explore more about this next session.
Anyone have any thoughts on this?
Deneb
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