Posted by LadyBug on October 18, 2006, at 20:38:16
I don't post much these days, but I do try to be supportive where I can. I do the best I can, though I know it's not much.
I had a total meltdown today. Some issues have happened at work the past few weeks and not to bore anyone, let's just say I was totally sh** on today. I've never been treated so unfairly in my life when it comes to a job. Always been the good employee, hard working, blah, blah, blah...........
I was planning on having total knee replacements done in January, but after what happened to me today at my work, I scheduled my first knee for next Wed. and the other knee the following Mon. Job or no job, I'm done with the pain that I suffer with each and EVERY step I take. They don't care about me, so why should I care about them? My director can kiss my butt.
I called my T to see if she had any open appointments today so I could process this with her, but she didn't have any openings. I see her tomorrow anyway so it will have to wait. I talked to my sister and it was good for me to turn to her instead of my T. That's how it should be anyway. I was desperate. I still haven't talked to her even though she said she'd call me tonight. I've been in tears most the day. I want to go crawl in bed and hide! I'm going to get my pre-op work done in the morning and also do the paper work. My T's office isn't too far from the hospital so she said she'd come and visit me. I'm ok with that. I will need her comfort. I won't be able to go see her at her office after tomorrow for at least a few weeks. My mind is going crazy thinking of all I need to get done in the next few days to prepare not only my mental self, but my home and family needs to be taken care of too. I'm glad I don't have small children and that my daughters can at least be helpful to me. I think things will work out for the best as far as my job goes. My T will be there for me all the way, I'm thinking it might work out with her to come to the hospital and maybe even to my home during my recovery since I won't be driving for a time. I probably won't have a job when I get done, but right now I don't care. I can't wait to see my T tomorrow. This is big to me.
LadyBug
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