Posted by Tamar on January 26, 2007, at 16:35:11
In reply to Re: canceled my T apt...why do i do this to myself?, posted by youngaddict on January 26, 2007, at 13:43:30
> ** we have been doing that but then i get so mad because i want to know why i am an addict, what reason i have etc.. and my t wants me to just forget that and work on getting clean first,
I could be way off the mark, but it sounds to me as if this is the key to the current difficulties you're having in therapy.
It's important to you to understand yourself and the role that addiction plays in your life, and its origins in your life and so on. That's a perfectly reasonable point of view.
It's possible that your therapist doesn't understand how or why that's important to you. It's also possible that she thinks it's hard to deal with that stuff while you're still in the throes of addiction. Maybe she's worried that facing your demons may make it harder for you to leave your addiction behind.
It sounds like a conversation you really need to have with her. It's about your identity, so she needs to understand your perspective. If she strongly believes she's right about getting you clean first, then she needs to persuade you of that. It will be difficult to make progress when the two of you have different objectives.
I hope you manage to work it out with her.
Tamar
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