Posted by muffled on September 1, 2007, at 0:10:35
In reply to Re: Definition of trust, posted by muffled on August 31, 2007, at 23:56:27
Do I trust she'll be there for me?
That she can help me?
That if I end up in space, that she will find me and bring me back to my children?
Or do I fear that MAYBE she might be human....
and give up on me.
Cuz I too much trouble.
Its hard cuz I continually trying not to eg, e-mail/fax too much, but its a constant battle, cuz there's SO much. And I fear I ALREADY fax/mail too much, and will go over the line...
Or do I fear, that in my response to my 'stuff' that I will scare T? Cuz that would be the end of the relationship for me. She cannot fear me. Cuz if she does, then 'the response' would be there, and ALL her power will be gone. She becomes prey and I dunno if I can ever get back from that, and from the shame of my response to a person who has only consistantly showed caring and compassion towards me.
I KNOW I am a client, therefore a job, therefore expendable.
T is kind, but client is client, family is family, work is work. Client HAS to be work, or T's would never last.
I KNOW this.
But it makes us expendable.....
One time...I may push too far....
It all feels so BIG whats inside of me.
And its proly all a big NOTHING.
Big to a child, laughable to an adult.
Attachment difficulties.
Oversensitivity.
Genetics.
Evil.
Life.
M
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