Posted by antigua3 on October 8, 2007, at 9:09:57
I think I know what you all are going to say, but if I don't post I think I'm going to go crazy.
About two weeks ago, my pdoc added Lyrica to my meds. He said there were no side effects. In researching the drug, I found out weight gain is fairly common. I know the lit says only about 10% but anecdotal evidence suggests otherwise.
I started the drug, but as soon as I found out about the weight gain, I stopped eating. I have ED issues, and it comes and goes according to how things are going, and lately I've been losing weight. Not bad, still within the chart ranges, but have no appetite.
So, it dawned on me what's going on with me. It's my relationship with my pdoc. Irrationally, I think he betrayed me and prescribed a drug that would make me gain weight. A little more thinking, and of course it's about me having no control and my father having it all, and how I rebel against authority.
Did he prescribe the drug for this reason? It's killing me. Rationally, I know he probably didn't, but my emotions are tearing me apart. It has brought forth a lot. I'm shaking as I write this.
I know you'll tell me to call him, get it resolved so the feelings will lessen and I can move on. But that's the problem--contacting him.
When he didn't call me back before in a crisis (he was busy, he said, HA!), I swore to him that I would never, ever, ever call him again if I ever needed him. I could get past my pride and call, but what if he doesn't call me back again? I think it will make things so much worse. And we had just started to make things better.I don't see him again until next week.
If I can hold out, I can talk to my T about it this week, but it's not about her.
antigua
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