Posted by antigua3 on October 9, 2007, at 7:11:42
In reply to Re: Very shaky » antigua3, posted by RealMe on October 8, 2007, at 22:06:46
thanks for everyone's kindnes. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. It's scary for me to admit these things to anyone, so I usually keep it all tightly wound inside, which isn't good for me.
I have absolutely terrible trust and abandonment issues. I so wish I could learn to deal with them--I certainly cope better, but ED is not the answer, I know.
Yes, my pdoc knows about my ED, but we don't discuss it much. From my perspective (wrongly probably) I think he sees it as me manipulating him. Which maybe it really is. Like I said once before, when I was a teenager, I once got under 80lbs. and NOBODY noticed. It was obviously a scream for help, but I should have learned then it's not a good coping mechanism.
I spoke with my T last night. She absolutely thinks it's the drug and although I had already done it, she encouraged me to call my pdoc--and to keep calling him until he called back! She said to bring in that sheet (on Wed) you get at the pharmacy when you get the drug that tells you about the side effects. Sure enough, when I looked at it, it mentioned strong changes in moods and feelings (can't remember the word) which should be reported to the doctor immediately. And to call her today to let her know how I was feeling.
She's a peach; she called me 3X today before we connected and I appreciate that so much.
So I'll let you know what happens. And yes, I do have concerns about my relationship with my pdoc, but I'm trying to keep a good eye on it to see if it becomes unhealthy for me, if the bad outweighs the good.
thanks everyone,
antigua
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