Posted by nfc on December 8, 2007, at 20:40:49
Hi all,
Diagnosed w/ skits(too lazy to type it out) and hospitalized in Nov.05 after suffering symptoms for at least 3 years maybe longer. Symptoms started out small and gradually worsened. I didn't even know something was wrong w/ me. Suffered from erotomania, paranoia, delusional thinking, running dialogs in my head probably somemore but its hard to describe and forgot some. The erotomania was pretty bad. It made me develop strong feelings for a girl at work even though we never dated. My crazy thinking made me think she had feelings for me too and eventually I thought I had offended her in some way since she started looking stressed out and all. I apoligized to her one day
and had a conversation w/ her. From that day forward I had crazy thoughts like God was telling me she was my soul mate and that we were going to get married and live happily ever after blah blah. That went on for years and still haunts me today. Trying to find therapy to fix my thinking. I've screwed up chances to meet other girls because of being hung up on girl that I've come to realize doesn't share my feelings. Self esteem and self confidence really damaged from all this. Also went crazy on some close friends because of the skits and erotomania and has ruined the closeness of the friendship. In the hospital was on risperdal, clonazepam. Developed depression, flat feelings after taking the risperdal for 3 weeks but was told by the pdoc that I have skitsoaffective disorder. I dunno I blame the risperdal. I went on zoloft still didnt help. finally got off the risp and zoloft and went to abilify and lexapro. Months later I tried to quit cold turkey abilify and lexapro because I had tapered down to a low dose and the pdoc had told me so but I developed racing thoughts, irritability, uneasyness, many bouts of nausea and had to go back on.Doing better, quite well now still not 100% what does 100% define anyway? I dunno if I was ever normal.
Does anyone else have any stories they'd like to tell? How they're coping and how they're doing now?
I'm new here so I'm sorry if I'm posting in the wrong place and thanks in advance to any who reply.
thanks
nfc
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