Posted by rskontos on December 11, 2007, at 9:29:09
In reply to Re: Anybody w/ skits and how are they coping? » rskontos, posted by nfc on December 11, 2007, at 4:10:21
>>were u flat and depressed b4 taking any meds? also what do you mean when you say you can switch? I did more research on DID. Is that like switch to a different personality? I also read therapy is an important part of coping w/ DID.
**Yes I was flat and depress before as I dissociated all the time. And I was unrecognized as DD I was being treated for seizures as that is what they thought the missing time was. And when you loss time, the time lost is called a fugue, it can cause extreme headaches and in fact switching can, I was diagnosed with migraines. So all those years I was sent to doctor to doctor, neuro to neuro all putting me on a different med to help the "headaches" not really finding out where they were coming from. I had mri's, cat scans, eegs, you name it. But I never told them what went on at home or all the crap that went on as a child. No I hid that. And because I was still dissociating I didn't have suicidal thoughts I was aware of. And yes I did have different personalities although I don't think of them as that I think of them as "peeps". Alters is the word more docs use now. That sounds weird to me too. I wasn't aware of them because I went away. I woke up to new surroundings, new clothes, different people and I never knew what I did while I was gone. I would get tests back from teachers and did not remember taking the test. My other one took the test. No one ever caught on. I guess this one just took over and protected me when things at home got too bad, I call her the Protector. She has all the memories of the bad stuff too. Thank goodness she was smart as we made all A's for the most part and that was without my help for the most part. I did this off and on my whole teen years, most of my 20's and on.... There is another one though, I have been around now when she comes out, and whew she is a number. She can get in trouble. And she is the one that did stuff in my 20's well we won't go there. She didn't care. I have some mixed up ideas due to my mother and she acted on them. To handle the lost of time I maintained flat and numb alot. It is easy to do this when you dissociate. That I can do when I want to for the most part unless a panic attack gets to bad. Then I can and sometimes I will switch because some parts can handle panic attacks better than I can. I know this is weird I didn't understand it until lately and still don't.
>>To me, the way I see those w/ skits is that meds come first and foremost. I've read about trying to treat it w/ therapy only, like it was experimented w/ in the past but got little if any success. with me there was no way you were gonna have a coherent conversation w/ me when my symptoms were full blown. maybe for a few words it might seem ok but when I start to talk story and all these delusions and thoughts talking to me come out, oh boy make sure this one takes his meds. sorry if I seem cruel because of my humor. I kinda make myself laugh to lighten up myself. I guess therapy in a sense.
**Yes I think meds do make sense for most. In a way I have a fairly good handle on myself for what I have so that is why the T think I am ok for now. If she saw me at times she might doubt that but I am doing ok. You don't seem cruel at all I too use humor or else I would go crazy as this thing seem unmanageable with some humor and laughter. It is therapy!! therapy to me can take many forms. It is for you to decide what is therapy....if it makes you feel better is a type of therapy.
And as for the girl it isnt' dumb that you thought that. It is just part of your situation. ( I hate the word people use illness disease etc. I like situation. Implies we can have a part in getting better I think. Just me though, you can call it whatever you want skits if you want!)
Oh yeah, I too often think people are talking about me. I had a flown blow meltdown at my therapy session the other day because I thought a group of my friend's friends were talking about me and didn't like me so one of my not so favorite peeps showed up to take over and I tried to wrestle control back and it was not pretty. It made me so upset that I cried for days. I broke down in front of my therapist and she showed up again to protect me from her I guess and I got so upset. So I understand that feeling all to well.
ANd speaking of talking too much. You don't have a corner on it. I haven't said this much in forever. I am glad you told your story and I hope it helped you. It helped me. You see sometimes talking to others with different things help as well as those with the same things. I think it shows us that we are not in this alone and that many people struggle to fit into this crazy world. You did help me. Take care, later gator....
rk
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