Posted by star008 on December 26, 2007, at 19:29:00
i tried and i got through the holdiays they are over, almost. I am so tired and so discouraged and it is hard to think of going through another year of this. i don't see any way out right now. I try to hope that things will change but i have been waiting and hoping for soooo long now. I am so depressed. I went out to the store and was looking at things for next xmas cuz they're so cheap now but part of me just isn't sure i am gonna be here next year.. I'm sorry, that is really depressing, isn't it? I see my P doc in a couple of weeks..htat discourages me too since nothing seems to work for me. Sometimes a med works for a little bit and I think I can get my life together and then it just poops out on me.
don't want to call my T because i have nothing to say except I am so tired and so depressed. And it is embarrassing to be me . I just can't get it together. I want to take a bunch of pain pills and forget everythng but i don't have any.. I want to disappear and not feel anything. I have been alone in my house for close to a week..
thanks for lsitening to me complain..
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thread:802790
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