Posted by Tabitha on July 24, 2009, at 1:35:10
In reply to Re: She says it's chemical » Tabitha, posted by Dinah on July 23, 2009, at 9:11:20
> I think that when you are at the hard won truth phase, it doesn't feel particularly negative.
Thank you for this. This is a great test for me to apply when I get into these places. It does feel negative. My brain is saying, but oh, if only I could really really accept it, it would be a relief and stop hurting. But it still actually feels negative.
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> I was about to post to you to see if you were ok, because you really haven't sounded like yourself lately. It didn't sound like acceptance or even grief to me. It sounded more like hopelessness.This is really valuable feedback for me. I think you've nailed it. It does feel like hopelessness. There was a bunch of martyrdom earlier, then it morphed a little into just a feeling of being... whipped or something. Like I'll keep on trying, but I know it's not going to work. I'll just keep on until I wear out. Gah, what's happened to me?
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