Posted by mmealltalk on March 22, 2013, at 21:59:23
I feel like every time I decide to actually write something here, as opposed to just read what others are up to, I am in the midst of feeling abandoned by my therapist or she is away or something like that. Its been like a year and a half i think since she moved to a new office, (she had a home office that she moved out of after the death of her husband) and I still am having a hard time dealing with all the changes in treatment. I feel like i used to be so much more close to her and important to her then and now i feel so neglected and abandoned. I see her and skype with her so my sessions haven't decreased but its still very different. It gets me so depressed at times that i am losing her, which she denies, she just says things change, and I really cannot handle it. If she tells me one more time we will just have to continue to work on it I may scream. I miss my old therapist and the changes are not her fault, but i feel so dependent on her and she isn't there in the same way for me. And it seems she only recognizes the anger this causes me rather than the sadness or loss. I probably don't even make sense right now because i am so upset and feel so alone but I just wish things could go back in time, which she probably does too in some ways, but they cant and dealing with the changes remains a huge issue for me. I have seen her for over 20 years and I know I should be handling this better but i'm not. It feels to me that she showed me that i could be accepted for who I was and cared about and all that and now she is less interested in me or less available and i resent her for showing me the good in the first place if it would just be withdrawn. OK, I know I make no sense, but i miss my old therapist.
Mel
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