Posted by alexandra_k on April 28, 2013, at 3:43:06
In reply to introversion..., posted by alexandra_k on April 28, 2013, at 3:33:47
an ideal life for me...
would be to have my own apartment. something fairly soundproofed. you need to have visited australasia to get that one... experienced the sh*tty construction. the point being that i don't want to hear when my neighbours take a dump or talk to their cat and i want to be able to talk to myself and not feel like other people are listening.
my very own space. so i can do my thing. a nice work space. i see a plant. i've learned that i'm very fond of green. i find green living things to be relaxing. i could potentially have a little patch of native bush / forest out my window and the odd birdcall insofar as i can't hear people noises at all. not-voice people noises i am more tolerant of. but i don't want to hear anybody speaking in words. not at all.
sunlight is important though i guess i can make do with lighting... warmth is important. again, you need to have visited australasia in the winter to understand...
i'd like a few cafes in the vicinity. so i'm thinking city, yeah. i would like to be able to put myself somewhere where there are busy people... and where there are enough of them so that i'm not salient. so that people just get on with doing their own thing and don't pay any particular attention to me. i need few cafes because the inevitable will happen... someone will try and talk to me / get to know me. which will ruin the situation for me (since i'm trying to write) so i need to find someplace else.
why is it that most people are incapable of backing off? why is it that if i resolutely look away when i see people looking at me they don't take the message that i don't want to talk to them? why do they have to shuffle closer. make noise and movement to try and get my attention. can't they see that it irritates me. that it actually hurts?
and the crazy thing... is that as soon as someone responsively backs off...
my mood lifts.
it transforms the world.
you wouldn't believe how rare that is...
how much it hurts.
poster:alexandra_k
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