Posted by narcissistic_martyr on March 27, 2005, at 20:34:01
i am so tired of this... i'm 21 years old and have had an ED for almost ten years. Lately I feel i'm coming to the end of my rope. I'm 5'4" and currently around 84 lbs. Even though this isnt the lowest weight I've been at this height, I've been experiencing a lot of symptoms typically associated w/ anorexia... low bp, fatigue, depression, trouble concentrating. I've also been purging several times a day. Needless to say, all this has had a devestating impact on schoolwork, social life, and general well-being have all been compromised.
I know I need help, but I'm terrified of what, at this point, "help" will imply...namely, forced feeding/weight gain. i've been through hospital programs many times, and my experience has always been that they pack on the pounds so quckly that I come out feeling like a mishapen blob, completely dissociated from my physiognomy
Not sure what i'm looking to get out of this post... i know what i need to do (namely, "EAT"), but i've been stuck in this rut for so long, i dont know what to do...
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thread:476427
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