Posted by Declan on July 23, 2006, at 15:01:38
In reply to Re: A local maxima, point of inflection occurring » Declan, posted by llrrrpp on July 23, 2006, at 11:36:58
I've no idea why I find company so stressful, why in fact the company of kind decent people can make me desperate.
I'm annoyed by labels like (I dunno what's relevant) social phobia or PTSD. (I grew up on neurosis, but have a soft spot for neurasthenia.)
I had always thought that if I could find the right words to capture the experience then it would become more manageable, that it would be possible to create laughter out of fear, at any rate. The fear of making mistakes comes to mind. Maybe socially there are a great many mistakes you can make? We're not supposed to worry about making mistakes (are we?).
I remind myself that the political version of 'mistake' might be a couple of hundred thousand lives ('mistakes were made'), and try to relax.
Declan
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