Posted by Tabitha on September 25, 2003, at 22:01:42
In reply to Re: Started group therapy » Tabitha, posted by Dinah on September 25, 2003, at 21:00:25
tonight I had my individual session, half of which was spent processing my reaction to the group. She suggested I just share with them the stuff about not feeling sure how things work. That's fine. But then she wanted to process my reaction to one guy who shared pain about a recent breakup. I just felt like I didn't want to listen to the guy, and had lots of critical thoughts about him. By the end of the session, she had prodded me to see I was avoiding pain over my own recent breakup, so I was finally crying over all this stuff that seemed to come out of nowhere, and left exhausted and depressed.
She's not usually so pushy with me. She was pretty confrontational about some of my other reactions to the group too. I have critical ideas about men, and I know this is a problem I need to work out, but she was just more confrontational than usual. I usually get lots of coddling!
This is how it went before when I was in group. The individual sessions just changed so that I felt like she was forcing me to progress at a rate that would benefit the group.
I know, I'll have to bring all this up with her in my next session. But by next week I'll have a whole load of new issues with the group, too. It's like tripled my therapy workload. I have to process me, my reactions to the group, and the change in the individual relationship.
Disclaimer: I'm griping plenty, but I'm committed to getting something out of all this. It's all supposed to be more healing, right? I just gripe when therapy seems to be adding more stress. When will it feel good? I've been working on my stuff forever!
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