Posted by Elle2021 on October 31, 2003, at 21:15:51
In reply to Re: Anyone else live in their dreams?--Jellibabe » Elle2021, posted by Jellibabe on October 31, 2003, at 5:13:29
Jellibabe-
I forgot to mention that I also only get to see my psych. once a month. It used to be every two weeks, but I couldn't afford that. And now, I don't get to see him again until Dec. I just had my cat get hit by a car and he died. It has sent me into this awful depression. I wish I could call him up, but I feel like I already call him too often about my medications.So, what do you see your psych. for (if you don't mind my asking)? I'm supposedly Borderline, and I have OCD, GAD, and Panic Disorder, nasty depression. Makes life a real joy. But I make the best of it I guess.
I do really miss my therapist inbetween visits. He is so kind to me and caring.
Elle> Oh Elle, will we ever get over this? Will I still be looking for a father figure when I am 70 (assuming I get that far).
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> It's not as if I want anything bad. I just want him to hug me and to love me, even if it is just a little bit. I want to be able to go for walks with him, talk with him, make him tea and bring it to him with love, tell him a joke and make him laugh, and sometimes have him hold my hand.
> Those are not bad things, surely. Just daughterly things.
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> I'm trying not to cut at the moment. So far I have managed. Life just seems to be an endless round of pain and cutting and dreams and more pain . . . just constantly trying to escape the pain with little splashes of sunshine every two weeks when I see him.
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