Posted by 10derHeart on November 27, 2005, at 16:45:05
In reply to Re: Just for now.... » 10derHeart, posted by fallsfall on November 16, 2005, at 7:10:56
> (((((((10derHeart)))))))
THAT was a big one. :-)
> These kinds of changes are so, so hard.
Yup. Ouch. But...maybe....just maybe I'm realizing I do get to the other side, often wiser and better, and *surprise!!* the changes don't actually kill me! Something quite awesome to realize.
>>And if you "need" someone else in the world to read them, then ask someone to. I know that I have a hard time journalling if noone will read it.<<
I usually can't bear the thought of anyone reading my journals. But in this case, I'm desperate for my T. to read my thoughts and feelings - in real time, so to speak. And ONLY my T., it seems. And he encouraged that for SO many months....the bonehead! <sigh>
> He's being open and honest about this situation. You can be open and honest, too. And the two of you will get through it.<<
Yes, you're right. It's coming at quite a great cost to him emotionally, from what I can pick up from VERY nervous body language on his part during that first day, the second, horrible session, and one we've had since then. Each time I mention certain aspects of my hurt and upset....it starts. I should probably tell him if he ever plays poker he's in trouble, 'cause he's got some out of control "tells."
Love your posts, Falls. Always look forward to them on any thread. There's just something about your writing that conveys steadiness and calm and caring. Thanks for that.
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