Posted by muffled on August 25, 2007, at 22:45:13
In reply to Re: Question, posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on August 25, 2007, at 16:56:33
> Muffy,
**Thanks for posting HF, I know you got alot on your mind right now...
> I have a feeling that surgury you had might be a lot of what is happening to you. Surgury is tramatic no matter what kind, but for that kind at that age, would almost feel like a violation at least to me. (even if it was medically nessary and they were professionals)**I wasn't that young really, maybe 16-17 or so, my mother wasn't involved so i must have been a certain age, at least 17 cuz I think I could drive then? can't remember for sure.
> Plus I am sure there was some recovering pain too, I don't know what you had done, but it seems all surgury involves this. Plus the envasion of the docts looking there, even professionally, can cause those feelings especially at such a young age. I could be wrong though.**No doubt it was uncomfortable...for recovery, I had to digitally stretch the tissue after surgery so it would not just scar up totally, so that was embarrassing...
> I remembered when I hit puberty at age 9 and my male peditrician looked down there, I didn't understand why at the time, I certainly wasn't prepared for anyone to look there, even a doctor. It was very awkward for me, and I remember never wanting to see him again and I am sure he was just being professional.
**Age NINE! Ouch, thats young. I don't remember when I started, but definately not 9.
I was never examed until I was 16 or so, but it was at my own request, cuz I couldn't use tampons, so I went to GP to find out why. I did blank out on that exam, I have no recall, other than looking at boxes of free trial packs of drugs in her office and wondering if any of them were worthy of stealing to get high...
Entirely(probably) possible I was high and/or drunk for the exam as well. I remember getting drunk to goto doc.
She sent me to gyn, I remember her being amazed that I could mensturate at all and wanted to show some students?!?! Can you IMAGINE???? LOL! Anyhow, I don't remember if she went and got them or not, I must have left at that point.
I was proly drunk then too.
So I was well "medicated" LOL, so i'm not sure if it was traumatic or not !
It WOULD have been traumatic if I was un'medicated', and only nine years old :-(, but by 16 I had a pretty clear understanding of 'stuff', so no big surprizes.
The more I think about it, the more I think that must have been SO hard for you HF, esp given the 'mother'(so called) that you had.
((HF))
Take care,
Muffled
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