Posted by antigua3 on May 16, 2011, at 21:40:24
In reply to Re: New Therapy Phase, posted by ron1953 on May 4, 2011, at 10:07:16
Hello Daisy (and all my babble friends),
You said you were actively shutting down your feelings as you enter this new phase. I know what you mean, but to me that means you are absorbing the feelings into your very being and that's a good thing. I hate the word integration when used to describe the process, but it fits. Because if you are truly shutting down your feelings, they may come back to bite you! I am assuming that you feel you are doing the right thing? It's painful and difficult, but it can be a relief to put the feelings to rest. They will never be gone, but they don't have to run your life anymore.
I understand the sadness, too. I don't see my T anymore, for several reasons, the most important being that she isn't the same person anymore. She is aging and I truly think she has early Alzheimer's so it is a huge loss. But she lives within me and she always will, just as the very best parts of your T will always be with you.
I'm not making much sense. I really just wanted to say that I hear you, and understand what you are going through.
best of luck,
antigua
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