Posted by WittyOne on July 19, 2006, at 10:59:44
In reply to Re: Therapy ending- I'm FEELING/WANTING my Therapi, posted by Jost on July 19, 2006, at 2:00:16
> Hi, WittyOne.
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> Welcome to Psychobabble. I hope you'll find many interesting people here. Social phobia is a fear that many here share (including myself)
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> I've written you a longer message, but I can tell my mind is half shut down--virtually nodding to sleep. So I'll let you know my thoughts tomorrow.
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> I'm glad to see you here, and hope that as you participate more, you find that this is a place to experiment, let your hair down, proverbally, and find that others are kind, thoughtful, and caring.
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> There are lots of boards to explore, too.
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> I'll be back in touch tomorrow.THANK YOU! I just found this site... I APPRECIATE THE SUPPORT RE: Social Phobia! I have always had some degree of it yet have had DYNAMIC Work, Jobs and been on-stage, travelling, being an Int'l Flight Attendant.. so I have functioned Very Well too... It seems to have got worse a few yrs ago... and YES, I see/am experiencing that "Connecting", "Getting Support" IS VITAL.. its hard to reach out yet I need to ..... Most People with Social Phobia (including alot of Performers etc) are fantastic, interesting "people" people.... and its sad that we are isolating sometimes...
Re: My Thread (I hope its still there.. as I have NO IDEA how to use this site, its been confusing for me...) ... I am having mixed feelings about who will be my former therapist , soon. I DO feel it 'was no accident' HE has been my T, and I honor Him for NOT disclosing his sexuality despite I hadf an intuition he was Gay etc.. yet ended up settling to the possible reality he wasnt.... I also... Feel - that WE BOTH , may have powerful feelings for each other... AND.. maybe I am in a fantasy (or obsessing ) yet part of me feels.. there will be MORE to this story soon.. and that HIM & I are not done... that a personal connection will be discussed and planned..? I couldnt sleep last night AT ALL.. all I thought about was this IS the Guy I am to possible spend my Life with.... and I say that with a clear mind, reality based and knowledge of all the dynamics... OR.... maybe I just simply WANT HIM.. maybe that would make ALL the last 2 yrs of therapy, make it all worth it or so 'not an accident' that Him & I connect personally.... Today; I feel alittle obsessive or 'sentimental'...knowing IF he is Gay, and IF..thats IF (how embarassing and how possibly real it could be....? hmm.. i dont know) he HAS "Feelings" for me... than I WANT TO SEE HIM NOW < OUTSIDE OF THERAPY! (Maybe no sexual contact etc... yet personal time?)
I look forward to your letter.. THANKS for the welcome...Witty One... (Weds/AM)
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