Posted by Dinah on December 15, 2002, at 12:20:47
In reply to Re: Your doctor is trying to save your life. » Miller, posted by Phil on December 15, 2002, at 11:53:19
I'm asking this in a completely serious way. I am a religious person, and I fully agree with the religious prohibitions against suicide. I know how it would hurt my family in a way that I would never want to hurt them.
But I am so afraid of so many things, and I long ago decided that if x or y or z happens that I will kill myself because I just can't handle living with the consequences of those things. There aren't many of them, some are along the lines of bringing shame to my family (my OCD fear) and some have to do with fears of losing the most important people in my life. The fear of those things happening is paralyzing to me, and the only way to deal with the fear and live a real life is to have a way out. It seems perfectly rational to me, in my situation only. I agree that I wouldn't think it was the best solution for anyone else.
My fear of living is so much greater than my fear of dying.
I don't want to make the selfish choice of causing pain to others to save myself pain, but I'm pretty sure that under certain circumstances I would.
I know this is a personal question, but how did you come to the point where you could say that you would never make that choice? Are you completely sure? I want to come to that decision, I really do, but I don't know how to get there. The fear is just too great.
poster:Dinah
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