Posted by antigua on January 16, 2004, at 17:20:08
In reply to Re: Due to the mature nature of this post... » antigua, posted by Karen_kay on January 16, 2004, at 16:33:43
You know I would be lying if I took the high road and said: "Of course not, I would never let a man, not even my husband, force me to have sex."
Of course I do. When I drank, it was always easier because I would let my inhibitions go.
It has gotten worse in some ways as I remember more of the abuse. It's horrible. I try to move as little as possible and I kind of pick a spot to focus on the wall. Oh my, at this very instant I just realized that is what I did when I was kid--that's how I would lead to disassociating. Now I'm scared. I never realized that before. I didn't even know until just recently that I even disassociated--I saw myself floating up around the ceiling outside of my body, watching what was going on below.
Oops, I wasn't expecting this.
antigua
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