Posted by OzLand on July 15, 2007, at 1:41:58
In reply to Re: Anyone use/prefer laying on couch? » OzLand, posted by Honore on July 15, 2007, at 0:01:31
My therapist suggested it as something to consider as I had trouble looking at him, and he thought I might feel more comfortable on the couch. Since he knows me a little better now, he doesn't even bring it up. I am not concerned he would disappear or anything like that, it has more to do with trust and fears related to not so much the sexual abuse I endured, but the physical abuse and fears of death that I would not wake up the next morning because I would be killed in my sleep. I have this fantasy of him sneaking up behind me and trying to choke me to death.
In fact it is both uncomfortable seeing his face and trying to read his facial expression and comforting to know he is not scowling at me as my previous therapist would do sometimes. As it is I mostly look at the floor, but at least he is in front of me and not behind me. I have been feeling more trusting of him, however, and so maybe in a couple of months, I will feel okay about the couch, and then he will say not yet!!! I can just see it.
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