Posted by ForeverWounded on August 31, 2007, at 15:06:31
In reply to Re: Forced Termination and Hatred *Trigger SI* » ForeverWounded, posted by Quintal on August 31, 2007, at 12:52:09
> Yes, I felt intense rage and hatred at my (CBT) therapist and pdoc when they discharged me; especially because the T betrayed some of the unflattering comments I'd made about the pdoc in my CBT homework - to pdoc himself, and that is what I think triggered the termination and nasty discharge letter to my GP. That is why my GP now treats me like dirt, and that is why I can no longer get adequate treatment. Many times I have fantasized about taking revenge on them all, to destroy them utterly, mind, body and soul. But now, with time and patience, and practice, I have reached a state of acceptance, I think.
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> These feelings, though they're very intense, will pass in time if you let them. I know how effective cutting can be, and also drugging. Please try to keep yourself safe. I know it's hard.
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> QHi:
I feel bad for you that you had to undergo such betrayal. Thankfully, it is just my T. See, this is why I do not care sometimes for all of those "releases." I don't care if it's "more beneficial for my treatment" if everyone shared and collaborated. It makes me feel uneasy sometimes (not all the time.) And your betrayal is a case in point.
Thank you for taking the time to write and share your story though, because it did make me feel not alone. After spending all of those hours last night reading posts, I thought I was the only one who had such rageful, hateful, attacking thoughts towards the abandoning therapist. Thank you so much for helping me to feel not abnormal.
I hope things go better for you.
Thank you again and well wishes.
ForeverWounded
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