Posted by Daisym on May 26, 2011, at 14:04:55
In reply to Re: I'm leaving this board » Annabelle Smith, posted by Dinah on May 26, 2011, at 13:14:30
I agree with Dinah - although it hadn't really occured to me that you don't respond to others unless they are responding to what you initiate. If you step away from your own pain, it might give you purpose, which actually can lighten your own load. Counter intuitive, I know.
I'm struck by your need for intensity - you write that you want to hold on to it. Speaking from a brain chemical place, one can become addicted to
adrenaline. I think we've all read about excitement junkies who need to rush over and over again. The same thing can happen in the brain with fear and chaos - we need to feel the intensity of the anxiety, chemically speaking, to feel alive. It literally is a process of recovery to get past the craving for this. We can even self-create pain unconsciously to achieve the need for the chemicals. Given what you've written, it might be a place to begin watching. What happens when you meditate? What happens when you listen to soft music? Can you journal about happiness?All that said, I hope you find peace soon. You've been way too miserable for way too long.
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