Posted by Tamar on October 2, 2005, at 19:44:33 [reposted on October 5, 2005, at 21:44:46 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Deneb's OK now?, posted by Deneb on October 2, 2005, at 19:04:12
> I will refer to myself in the third person so as to minimize triggers.
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> Deneb did it, and she's a manipulative bitch for doing so.I don’t think you’re a manipulative bitch.
> Deneb basically threatened to OD unless she got a note. She got extremely upset... hyperventilated etc. She almost got sent to the hospital. The doc was really conflicted...Deneb doesn't think she knew what to do. Deneb had to sign a "no harm contract".
It may be a good thing that you signed a ‘no harm contract’. In a way it means you have to think about it before you seriously consider harming yourself. Oh yeah, and also it means people want you to live.
> Deneb got her note, but she feels like crap. Deneb is so manipulative she doesn't deserve to ____. Deneb doesn't even care about the note anymore, she can't believe she did such a horrible thing. She's having thoughts of ending it all now.
To be honest, Deneb, I don’t think you were manipulative. You have been having suicidal thoughts because of the stress of the forthcoming midterms. What you did wasn’t horrible; it was a re-enactment of how you have really felt on occasion in the last few days. It wasn’t a lie. It was true. So you’re not manipulative.
But the payoff is (in my humble opinion): you need to listen to yourself. The question is this: do you deserve help? And the answer is: Yes. You deserve help. You haven’t asked for anything outrageous. You have only asked for what you need. Now the hard part: accepting that you need help. Accepting that it’s OK to get help.
I hope you feel better soon. I want to hear great things in ten years about how you’ve discovered a new galaxy or something like that!
Tamar
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