Posted by lovelorn on December 8, 2007, at 13:46:20
In reply to Re: Yelling at your T? » lovelorn, posted by antigua3 on December 8, 2007, at 10:02:40
>Oh, I agree with you absolutely. I know that when I'm being cruel toward my pdoc, only a small portion of it is about him--
Yes, especially in the beginning I would get feelings of anger particularly when I would begin emotional and cry. A part of me felt like the T was "making" me do this, wanted to see me suffering or something and that would make me angry. Rationally, I knew it was myself making myself do it, otherwise why would I go there in mind and emotion. Still, I think maybe I was kind of hoping too that the T would somehow make me feel better, take away the pain and the "need" to go through the emotions. Afterall, isn't that what a friend/person is there to do when someone is in pain, help make it go away. The T wasn't doing that and it just seemed (at first) that is what she wanted, to see me in pain. Eventually, I began to see those part of sessions as her not necessarily wanting to see me in pain, rather she was providing me the safety and caring to be able to express it and work through it how I needed to, as many times as I needed to and now I go into the sessions realizing I need to do it, not her wanting me to do it. She wants me too inasmuch as if I need to do it, she is there to help me get through it and help however she can with psychological insight.
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