Posted by littleone on November 16, 2004, at 15:43:19
In reply to T's address, posted by littleone on November 11, 2004, at 15:42:19
Thank you all for your responses. Muchly appreciated.
I kind of started to fix the problem on the weekend by relegating his address and phone number to the monster box. And it's almost in there by now. Just one little corner sticking out and tempting me.
But he went and screwed that all up yesterday.
He was talking about emotional connection between him and me and how it needs to happen, but it's not something you can make happen. You just let it come naturally.
Ha! If it was that simple I wouldn't need therapy in the first place!
He was saying how I was becoming emotionally connected earlier in the piece when I put his photos in my journal and on my computer monitor at work.
Except he doesn't realise that was only the tip of the iceberg. I was totally obsessed with him. I know that's a pretty normal reaction in therapy, but I don't really see that as an "emotional connection". It's more like emotional suffocation. To me a connection is meeting half way.
When I write to him this week, I'll tell him this and I'll probably tell him I have his address and that I'm worried about letting that obsession thing out of the monster box again. But blah. I hate letting things out of that box. Other yucky slimy things try to slip out at the same time.
I'm good at putting things in the monster box. Not so good at getting them out again.
poster:littleone
thread:414649
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041113/msgs/416764.html