Posted by LittleGirlLost on July 11, 2005, at 14:48:15
In reply to Re: Need help figuring out feelings..... please?, posted by LadyBug on July 9, 2005, at 13:28:45
> I remember that even the weekends were hard for me because I knew where she was during the week as she was in her office. On the weekend, she was free to be wherever she wanted to be. I would panic each Friday. It took us some work to get through this.
Yes, I experience the exact same thing! I see her on Thursday night. It (the feelings) starts when I leave, and by Friday, I feel as if I will die. Sadness, panic, missing her, feeling so young and little and alone. She lets me call her, and I usually do on Friday. Sometimes I try to wait it out and will call on Saturday or Sunday. By Monday I'm usually better, and continue to get better (usually) until I see her again and the cycle starts all over. Why is this SO hard?!
>Do you know what she did for me? She wrote me a note on some special note paper and mailed it out to me on Friday so I'd get in on Sat. I would carry her note in my pocket all weekend and sometimes until I saw her again. She did that for over a year!!! Without fail! It helped me know she was there for me even though I didn't know where she was exactly. It helped me trust that I'd see her again.
That is SO awesome; I love it. How great of her to do that for you! So have things gotten better for you? Sometimes I wonder if I will ever feel better about this.
> I knew I felt more unsure since she was leaving the country. I gave her a small gold heart to take with her. She kept it in one of the lavender envelopes she used to mail her notes to me in. And she kept it in her purse while she was gone. I knew a part of me was with her while she was away. When she returned, she gave it back. To this day, I have the gold heart on my key chain as a reminder.
Ohhhh, I love that you did that. Wish I would have thought of something like that! "I" told her that I wanted to give her my favorite doll to take with her (we take her to therapy sometimes), but said I couldn't because I'd miss her too much. lol
> I think this is growth for you. It will get better for you with time.
Thanks, I sure hope so. Sometimes I really wonder if I can do this.
> Continuity is so important in therapy. It sounds like you have a good therapist. I'm here for you if you need it.
Thank you so much, LadyBug; I really appreciate it. :)
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